Oh, I'm so very with you on basically all of this. On the "but I should make a move/say something, but if I do, it might go badly, and right now things are OK...." mindset. I'm SO all about that. And then there's the "I don't want to say anything about this because it might jinx it, or might cause people to think I'm crazy, but I really really want to talk about it!". I more often err on the side of "but I want to talk about it!" than you do, but there are still definitely times when I do not say everything I want, for fear... (there is currently a situation I am quite curious to see what happens, but have not mentioned anything about it for fear of it being nothing...)