You realize that I'm mostly teasing when I give you a hard time about this? You know, teasing, that thing you don't like. I'm sorry if I've been making things harder on you; if I did, it was totally unintentional. But I still feel bad.
And, you know, you're talking about being paralyzed by anxiety about talking about whatever it is, but I've gathered from your extremely cryptic posts that you haven't been doing much about the actual issue either. I wonder if, subconsciously, you're conflating the two things, so it feels like it you talk about it you'll also be taking action, and you're afraid of that.
I think you have every right to talk about it or not talk about it, or take action or not take action, but I hope you're able to separate the two things, and to choose what you want to do instead of feeling like you're trapped. 'Cause as hard as choosing it, being trapped isn't much fun either.
(Oh, and I'm constantly turning off Cubs games if they're losing, because I figure they'll do better if I don't watch, so I totally get the superstition thing.)
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And, you know, you're talking about being paralyzed by anxiety about talking about whatever it is, but I've gathered from your extremely cryptic posts that you haven't been doing much about the actual issue either. I wonder if, subconsciously, you're conflating the two things, so it feels like it you talk about it you'll also be taking action, and you're afraid of that.
I think you have every right to talk about it or not talk about it, or take action or not take action, but I hope you're able to separate the two things, and to choose what you want to do instead of feeling like you're trapped. 'Cause as hard as choosing it, being trapped isn't much fun either.
(Oh, and I'm constantly turning off Cubs games if they're losing, because I figure they'll do better if I don't watch, so I totally get the superstition thing.)