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head colds suck.
as i was saying to a friend last night, it's not that this is the worst i've ever felt -- i know for a fact i've felt worse than this at various times in the past. it's just that i have no sense memory of how bad i felt at those times, whereas i am immediately and painfully aware of how bad i feel right now. this is the kind of discomfort where you forget what it feels like to feel well.
last night i got in bed and closed my eyes at something like 1:45. the next time i was aware of what time it was, i think it was about 3:30. and then 5am. i definitely heard the clock strike six. i couldn't stay asleep. every time i turned my head, i had to blow my nose. i kept having snatches of dreams about senior members of somerville college asking me for keys. at about 6am (i think) i stacked up my pillows to lean against -- i'm happier lying down, except that sitting up i can breathe a little easier. it didn't work and i still had to breathe through my mouth. i had a few isolated bars of chess stuck in my head for like an hour and a half, the same few bars from two or three different numbers, and i couldn't get them out. the only up side was, my throat doesn't hurt quite as much.
utter. misery.
i finally got up and got dressed around 3pm. have tried to eat some things, and i had some tea and spoke to my parents and my brother and sister-in-law. there's a dinner thing with the new students tonight, and i had to beg off -- i don't see myself paying £10 for a meal i'll barely taste while risking everyone else's health in the process. not to mention that the first few minutes i leave the building, i feel a little better -- fresh air, yay -- but after those few minutes, i feel worse and worse.
i went to the store and bought tissues, and pot noodles, and juice. and now i want to take a nap, but see above re: lying down. my ears are stuffed up. the tissues have lotion in them, and my nose is still raw. i know this will pass within another couple of days, but for now i just want to curl up and die.
last night i got in bed and closed my eyes at something like 1:45. the next time i was aware of what time it was, i think it was about 3:30. and then 5am. i definitely heard the clock strike six. i couldn't stay asleep. every time i turned my head, i had to blow my nose. i kept having snatches of dreams about senior members of somerville college asking me for keys. at about 6am (i think) i stacked up my pillows to lean against -- i'm happier lying down, except that sitting up i can breathe a little easier. it didn't work and i still had to breathe through my mouth. i had a few isolated bars of chess stuck in my head for like an hour and a half, the same few bars from two or three different numbers, and i couldn't get them out. the only up side was, my throat doesn't hurt quite as much.
utter. misery.
i finally got up and got dressed around 3pm. have tried to eat some things, and i had some tea and spoke to my parents and my brother and sister-in-law. there's a dinner thing with the new students tonight, and i had to beg off -- i don't see myself paying £10 for a meal i'll barely taste while risking everyone else's health in the process. not to mention that the first few minutes i leave the building, i feel a little better -- fresh air, yay -- but after those few minutes, i feel worse and worse.
i went to the store and bought tissues, and pot noodles, and juice. and now i want to take a nap, but see above re: lying down. my ears are stuffed up. the tissues have lotion in them, and my nose is still raw. i know this will pass within another couple of days, but for now i just want to curl up and die.