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fox ([personal profile] fox) wrote2011-07-08 06:18 pm

things i have done today

A partial list.
  • paid my rent;
  • bought plane tickets to Fort Wayne, IN (of all places);
  • bought plane tickets to Boston;
  • did my course evaluation for this semester; and
  • looked at some work I was doing from home today, because
  • felt wretched.


There's a strange way in which I'm oddly glad this mysterious Ongoing Headache With Dizziness thing I've got going on isn't going away before we know what it is? Like, every time I think it's disappeared I find myself thinking "see, that wasn't such a big deal after all" and then it whops me upside the head again as if to say "You mean this? This wasn't such a big deal? WE ARE A BIG DEAL, AND DON'T YOU FORGET IT", which, it's not like I'm glad to be feeling like crap, but I'm weirdly glad for the validation. I suppose karmically speaking I'm doomed to keep feeling like crap until the time I notice I'm feeling a little better and my first thought is not "I guess that wasn't such a big deal" but something more like "thank goodness that's over".

But I want to know what's going on, as well, so if it vanishes as mysteriously as it arrived, I will be (a) relieved and (b) frustrated.

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