Entry tags:
things i have done today
A partial list.
There's a strange way in which I'm oddly glad this mysterious Ongoing Headache With Dizziness thing I've got going on isn't going away before we know what it is? Like, every time I think it's disappeared I find myself thinking "see, that wasn't such a big deal after all" and then it whops me upside the head again as if to say "You mean this? This wasn't such a big deal? WE ARE A BIG DEAL, AND DON'T YOU FORGET IT", which, it's not like I'm glad to be feeling like crap, but I'm weirdly glad for the validation. I suppose karmically speaking I'm doomed to keep feeling like crap until the time I notice I'm feeling a little better and my first thought is not "I guess that wasn't such a big deal" but something more like "thank goodness that's over".
But I want to know what's going on, as well, so if it vanishes as mysteriously as it arrived, I will be (a) relieved and (b) frustrated.
- paid my rent;
- bought plane tickets to Fort Wayne, IN (of all places);
- bought plane tickets to Boston;
- did my course evaluation for this semester; and
- looked at some work I was doing from home today, because
- felt wretched.
There's a strange way in which I'm oddly glad this mysterious Ongoing Headache With Dizziness thing I've got going on isn't going away before we know what it is? Like, every time I think it's disappeared I find myself thinking "see, that wasn't such a big deal after all" and then it whops me upside the head again as if to say "You mean this? This wasn't such a big deal? WE ARE A BIG DEAL, AND DON'T YOU FORGET IT", which, it's not like I'm glad to be feeling like crap, but I'm weirdly glad for the validation. I suppose karmically speaking I'm doomed to keep feeling like crap until the time I notice I'm feeling a little better and my first thought is not "I guess that wasn't such a big deal" but something more like "thank goodness that's over".
But I want to know what's going on, as well, so if it vanishes as mysteriously as it arrived, I will be (a) relieved and (b) frustrated.
