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fox ([personal profile] fox) wrote2011-11-22 11:21 pm

dad

He's gaunt and exhausted, but seeing him was not the kick in the gut I was bracing for. Not locked in my room sobbing. Was locked in my office sobbing twelve hours ago, though. Having my folks to look after makes it easier to keep it together; when I'm by myself and people are being nice to me is when I fall to bits.

Protestants, help me out: what's a prayer chain?
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[personal profile] jennaria 2011-11-23 04:31 am (UTC)(link)
I think it's a church thing whereby the paster calls one person, who calls one person, who calls one person, and so on, to let each person know to pray for so-and-so. Which they then do.

(Also, my thoughts are with you and your dad.)
Edited 2011-11-23 04:32 (UTC)
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[personal profile] leela_cat 2011-11-23 05:42 am (UTC)(link)
*hugs*

And I had no idea what a prayer chain was... interesting to know.
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[personal profile] zoethe 2011-11-23 05:47 am (UTC)(link)
I totally understand the falling apart only when away from responsibility. You hold it together when there are other people to care for because you have to, and because you're needed, and because it gives you focus. Your own feelings can be secondary then, and that's a way of insulating yourself.

yet more hugs.
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[personal profile] kass 2011-11-23 11:01 am (UTC)(link)
Glad you are hanging in. And yes, I hear you about it being easier to keep it together sometimes when there's someone else to look after.

*hug*

[identity profile] juice817.livejournal.com 2011-11-23 02:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Email me your dad's first name and I will do the Mormon version of a prayer chain for him.
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[personal profile] sanj 2011-11-23 03:39 pm (UTC)(link)
*surround-hug*

I totally get what you mean, though, about it being easier to keep yourself together when you have someone else who needs caretaking. Just please remember to take care of you, too.
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[personal profile] lexin 2011-11-23 04:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Can only second the thought that you need to care for yourself, too.

I'm the same - I can maintain it when there are other people around needing looking after, but if someone is sympathetic to me, I can feel the tears pricking.
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[personal profile] kouredios 2011-11-23 04:27 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs*