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Dec. 2nd, 2024 10:26 am
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Himself's aunt came over from the UK for Thanksgiving and asked for my pecan pie recipe. I've made that pie in the UK twice, once successfully and once not, and the difference was the availability of corn syrup; when I couldn't get it, I tried to cook down brown sugar to substitute, and either I didn't boil off enough of the liquid or it just doesn't behave the same way, because that pie never did set properly. Tasted fine, but it was soup.

So. For a pie whose filling's ingredients are butter, sugar, eggs, vanilla, pecans, and dark corn syrup, if you couldn't get corn syrup of any sort, what would you do? I've been thinking about using brown sugar instead of white and golden syrup instead of Karo. (The aunt said "oh no, golden syrup is such a sticky mess," and I had to point out that corn syrup is as well and that's sort of the point.) Any more expert bakers have other thoughts?

Himself is heading out of town for a couple of days this week, so although I usually go to the office Tuesday and Wednesday I'll have to be at home this Wednesday and was waffling about whether to make my second in-office day Monday or Friday. Ultimately decided I might as well get it out of the way, and then promptly forgot about it, so when he woke me up this morning and said "Weren't you thinking of going in today?" all I could say was UGH. But I did, I got up and dressed for going in and got all the way to the train and went to lock up the scooter and realized I didn't have my lock, because I didn't have my bag, which meant I couldn't even haul the thing in with me and charge it at the office because I didn't have my computer. Sigh. Scooted back home, picked up the work bag, and did it all again.

I've been fighting off a sinus cold thing and I think it's making me stupid.

inventory

Oct. 15th, 2024 10:38 am
fox: arctic fox:  time to hibernate (hibernate)

When we last spoke (or—last time before I triumphed over the stack of Postcards to Swing States, that is), my mother had briefly almost failed to recognize me and I had made an arrangement with my doctor to medicate my anxiety as well as adjusting the medication for my blood pressure.

Then one Thursday evening )

Then Himself went on a work trip for a week )

While he was gone )

MEANWHILE. )

This past weekend )

AND (a) I mean, look at the world, plus it is (b) concert week—which means three late nights and a full Sunday for me, always a pain in the ass, although we're doing the Brahms Deutsches Requiem, which I love more every time I sing it—and (c) the month of October, which is always uncomfortable for me ever since the time, 12 years ago tomorrow, that my mother told us my father's oncologist said it was probably time for my brother and me to come home. There's no avoiding it: Even in years when I haven't realized where we are in the calendar, the body remembers. Last night I got home from rehearsal and got quietly ready for bed so I wouldn't wake Himself and lay there with my phone screen dimmed trying to wind down by doing the crossword puzzle and reading a few pages of . . . something, I don't even remember what, and I could feel my bite guards clacking together as my TMJ just twitched and spasmed. Making the effort to hold your jaw slightly open so your teeth don't clench is just another kind of tension, of course. I can't win.

well

Nov. 25th, 2015 01:52 pm
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The family is in town for Thanksgiving, we're having a nice visit, and now I'm waiting for them to come home from the zoo so I can tell my mom and my brother bad family news ).
fox: gryffindor:  a man who can do that can plan my castle onslaught any day. (gryff - onslaught (by ldymusyc))
I am having a very, very hard time believing that Thanksgiving is eleven days from now. I mean I guess I can't say I can't believe it, but JFC, where has the time gone!? Yes yes--the days are long but the years are short. But this year, the months and weeks and days are also quite short. I have managed to schedule myself into a series of corners; not sure how that happened either.

Mondays - chorus rehearsals
Tuesdays - curling
Wednesdays - curling
Sundays - Catholics
This week - extra chorus stuff; because I'm an idiot, I agreed to do a chorus gig with the BSO that involves rehearsing in Baltimore this Wednesday (spare arranged for curling) and Thursday and performances Friday through Sunday; also, next Sunday is stir-up Sunday Christ the King, which means I'm on twice with the Catholics, which could (or will?) make me late for the call time in Baltimore. I fretted for a while about how early I'd need to leave the second Mass to be sure I could get there on time and finally told the chorus I might not be able to make it on Sunday, and I've been sleeping a little better ever since. I might still be able to get there, but depending on what the roads look like, it's good to know I'm not going to be held to it. And it's Bernstein's Chichester Psalms, which I like very much, but seriously, that level of stress for a twenty-minute performance is not. worth it. Not at this time of year, anyway.
Plus - some side work doing a bit of light editing I said I'd help a colleague out with. Need to finish that today.

So that's November. For December, I can subtract the extra chorus stuff but add more Catholic stuff, because Christmas, and subtract the whole idea of getting ready for Thanksgiving, but add Yuletide.

This is going to have to be the last year I do two nights of curling on top of doing chorus. I don't know what's going to give, but it's going to be something, because I am exhausted. Switching my birth control pill this week should help, I think--I had a backup substitute formulation while they special-ordered the kind I said had the least unpleasant side effects, and I haven't been enjoying how it's been making me feel. But I don't think it's the only culprit.

Anyway I finally pointed out to Himself the other day that I've been--sort of not-quite-depressed, but I can kind of see it from here. I routinely feel like I don't want to go to rehearsal, but then I almost always feel better when I get there. (I've been having thoughts since last winter or spring about possibly having outgrown this particular chorus, but I'll want to think more seriously about that when I'm not overscheduled into the ground.) I routinely feel like I don't want to go to curling, but then I do always feel better when I get there. So it's not a matter of no longer enjoying things that I used to enjoy. I don't spend time at curling wishing I were at home instead. I'm not having panic attacks or crying jags or other symptoms. I'm just so tired that if I had a choice I would stay home and knit or read or do something else that didn't involve leaving the house instead. I don't have the choice right now, because I've made these commitments, but the next time it is time to make such choices, I think I'm going to choose differently.

We're thinking about trying to get away somewhere for a weekend. Bit of a recharge. Or a reboot. I hope we can find a time for this. We can only hang on by our fingernails for so much longer.

progress

Oct. 29th, 2013 10:03 am
fox: hufflepuff:  i just want you to feel you're doing well. (puff - doing well (by ldymusyc))
Last week I slipped on the third stair from the bottom at my brother's house and banged the living shit out of my tailbone and right hip. By now it doesn't hurt much anymore, which is exactly a week (I mean, it was like 9am last Tuesday - I know, because I was on my way to accompany my sister-in-law dropping my mom at the airport, and that's when we had to leave the house) from injury to about 99% recovery. I would not have predicted it would be that fast, because (a) it hurt like hell at the time and (b) I'm not in great shape generally, and it's been my experience that people who are stronger and fitter to begin with recover more quickly.

When my mom was post-surgical in June, the pain scale thing they had in her room was the normal 1-10 one (and not the Hyperbole and a Half version, which I showed her before her procedure and which made her laugh), but it was annotated to suggest the differences between the levels had to do with how distracting the pain was, which I found really useful. This week when my hip has been bothering me, it's been distracting because of things I can't do as I normally would or in some cases at all - like, I had to find a new way to put on my pants, because I couldn't lift my foot off the floor or bend over far enough to put them on in the usual way. I had to hold onto something and move in a particular way if I wanted to lean over to pick something up or put something in the dishwasher or what have you. Sometimes even reaching for things with my right hand was too hard and I had to use my left. So I'd call that about 7 or 8. By contrast, a couple of summers ago when I had that nerve thing in my jaw? When that nerve was acting up, I mean in those moments, it was a level of distracting where all I could think about was how much it hurt and how to make it stop. There was no question of doing normal things in different ways. I wouldn't be able to put something in the dishwasher; I'd just drop it. It was an automatic pause button in any conversation I was having because I was abruptly busy writhing in pain. That'd be a 10. Anyway, I've been thinking this week about how that seems to me to be a useful way of measuring pain. I believe I know people who can mostly go about their normal business with broken bones (depending on the bone), because sure, they can feel it, but it doesn't really bother them. Other people, that's going to ruin their day. So.



In other kinds of progress, I'm getting a lot done around the house in my abundant spare time these days, just in general and also in preparation for the holidays. We are hosting Thanksgiving, with ten adults and a three-year-old. Meep! (Side note: my nephew digs numbers, and I remembered a video of him reading (!) an e-mail from his grandmother where she said she was back home at [her house number], which is how he knows her house - so we talked about my address, and how that's where he's going to come for Thanksgiving, and now he is excited about this house number too. Yay!) I need to come up with "assignments" for everyone, make sure I know what everybody can't live without on the Thanksgiving table, and find some hotel recommendations for my mom and my aunt and uncle. Plus cleaning the house thoroughly between now and ... four weeks from now. :-) I'm also resuming setting the alarm and getting up in the morning, instead of waking up when Himself gets up and goes to work and then going back to sleep for another hour.
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My mother drove down - by herself! - to spend Thanksgiving here with me and the Gentleman Caller and his folks. Made outstanding time. We are now ensconced in my living room and I've talked her into giving the BBC Sherlock a try. So far she seems to be enjoying it, apart from she took one look at the box and said "'The game is on'? No, that's wrong - the game is afoot!" I explained again that it's a modern treatment, and she grumbled and rolled her eyes. We also agreed that we'd prefer if they'd called the first episode "A Study in Salmon". But she did turn to me about five or ten minutes into the show and say "Much better than Robert Downey Junior and Jude Law. This seems more like trying to bring the original characters into a modern setting than like trying to take the original story and make it yours."

:-)
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Getting to the airport on Tuesday was quite an adventure - one that ultimately ended happily, but I didn't know for sure that I was going to get on my plane until I was on it. A few minutes before which, at about 6:10 pm, a young woman comes rushing up to the shortish security line (the only line) at whose end I am standing and says "Does anyone mind if I go ahead, because my flight is at 6:30?"

I said - not unkindly, I hope - "Mine's at 6:20, honey." And started to go on about how we were all trying to catch planes and we'd have to move as efficiently as possible.

At which point the woman who was second in line said, "Come on up here - you should both go in front of me."


From this I take two very valuable lessons, namely: no matter what's making you frantic and desperate, it's worth not forgetting that other people have got shit going on too; and, help is not only available but in fact on offer if you only let someone know you need it. I knew both of these things, of course, but it was good to have the reminder two nights before Thanksgiving.

My dad is hanging in there. He wants so badly to feel better, and it's breaking his heart to be breaking ours. I was doing really well not falling to pieces until this morning, when an argument with my sister-in-law over whether I was talking about permutations or combinations reduced me to a weeping wreck for close to an hour (not because of permutations or even because I was arguing with her, of course, but because I was already so fragile and today is the day I'm leaving).

My brother brought me to the airport and I'm having a glass of wine before boarding. I've had a lot of wine in the past couple of days, and a lot of ice cream. I know you're all telling me to be sure to take care of myself, but maybe I'd better be sure I'm not drinking too much.

dad

Nov. 22nd, 2011 11:21 pm
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He's gaunt and exhausted, but seeing him was not the kick in the gut I was bracing for. Not locked in my room sobbing. Was locked in my office sobbing twelve hours ago, though. Having my folks to look after makes it easier to keep it together; when I'm by myself and people are being nice to me is when I fall to bits.

Protestants, help me out: what's a prayer chain?
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This is like miraculous, you guys. Six and a half hours there on Wednesday, seven and a half back today. I am putting stuff away and I've got Fr. Ewan McGregor (along with Tom Hanks, Pierfrancisco Favino, Armin Mueller-Stahl, Ayelet Zurer, and Stellan Skaaarrrsgårrrd) on my television. Things are pretty good.

roundup

Nov. 28th, 2009 10:44 pm
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The turkey and its accoutrements (side note: spell-check prefers "accouterments", but I refuse) are almost gone. My uncle and aunt have gone home. I have played a fair amount of cribbage (winning only twice, but almost winning several times) and a little bridge (making my own contracts and setting a fair few of my opponents' with clever defense, and usually - but not always - bidding correctly, even, though only once causing confusion with two cards stuck together so my hand appeared to have one less than anyone else's), and accomplished some knitting, and written about a third of my team's final paper for my class, which is due December 10 - a week from this Thursday - or, in fact, actually December 9, so everyone can read it (ha!) before we present it in class that evening. I'm more or less making shit up, but I understand from the general grapevine that that's more or less normal?

tl;dr - final paper )

The house is almost completely quiet. My parents are off tomorrow to Australia and Other Faraway Places - my mother is giving a paper at a conference in Cairns, and they are quite sensibly not going all that way just to turn around and come home. Cairns, Brisbane, Sydney, (no Uluru, but you can bet when I get to Australia I won't miss it), Kuala Lumpur, Phnom Penh - remember when we wouldn't let them go to Cambodia? Somehow a side trip to Cambodia doesn't distress us as much as a deliberate trip to Cambodia and nowhere else. (Plus, they've taken our concerns seriously and etc.) Anyway, my brother is driving them to the airport at 4am, so all three of them are asleep now, and the house is making the sort of occasional noise houses make - the whir of the appliances, the occasional muffled thunk as something settles somewhere. I'm off to bed now; I'll wake up and say goodbye when they go, and then go back to sleep and wake up when I wake up and drive home again.

Thanksgiving is good. It's my favorite holiday. (This year, also, I get to wish a happy birth day to Young Zaphod, my newest baby friend. [g]) But I'm already ready for Christmas, I think, when most of what is currently stressing me out (to sum up, from the above and what's in my head: class work and the non-teamwork thereof; concert for which I'm not confident enough of us will know the music well enough not to be a moderate embarrassment; curling, which is always good, taking up just a shade more of my time than I feel I have free at the moment; my parents ten thousand miles away where there are, in no particular order, scorpions, land mines, tropical heat and its related contagions, armed gangs - listen, it's not that I don't think world travel is a positive thing, it's just that they are not especially adventurous and I worry about them; did I mention this class teamwork thing?) will be over. Right now I sort of feel like I don't have time to be doing nothing tomorrow but driving. Alas, I'll be in the car by myself, so driving it is.
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It's been slowish, with a little knitting, a little card-playing, a little picking up my brother and sister-in-law at the airport, and a big meal. I hope everyone else who has Thanksgiving is enjoying it, and everyone who doesn't especially care is enjoying Thursday and looking forward to the weekend. :-)
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1. Happy birthday to [personal profile] ellen_fremedon!

2. Okay, bye, kiddies. I'm going to get in the car and drive to Cleveland. Wish me non-suckage between here and Hagerstown. If you've got my number, feel free to call. I'll be on the road all day and may well be bored, especially in the slower-moving bits. :-) Happy Thanksgiving!
fox: curling:  holding the broom for a hit. (vice)
My team and I curled very well tonight, which combined with the fact that the other team Just Couldn't Get It Together for a while meant we were up 12-0 after four ends. Then they took four, we took one, and they took three, and we were out of time for the eighth - so that's 13-7, which is (trust me) an ungodly score for a curling match. (And they only got the three in the seventh because I was playing to try to steal - given different circumstances, I'd have thrown through and kept it clean and held them to one.)

No parking when I got home, but that's all right - I'll go get the car from across the street in the morning and pack it up with my stuff for the long drive. I promise to check in before I go, because I know you'll all be unable to get through your Wednesday without hearing from me first thing in the morning. :-)

for real

Nov. 30th, 2008 09:23 pm
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So having left my parents' house at 11:30, as I said, I got only about an hour from home before the trouble started in the form of a three-mile backup for the stupid Ohio Turnpike toll lanes. No EZPass for us, nosiree, and the fact that Pennsylvania and Indiana, i.e. the states whose highways the OH Tpk connects to on either side, are on EZPass can go hang.

Sigh.

I still had three notches on the gas tank when I got to the Oakmont service plaza (about 45 miles into PA), so I didn't fill up then, and that wasn't the smartest choice I've ever made. It wasn't too long after Oakmont that the fog started, and the traffic slowed right the hell down, and long story short, the last three notches went way away while I was bumper to bumper in the hills of central Pennsylvania. For the last thirty miles, the dashboard display switches to a countdown of OMG You Only Have This Many Miles Left On This Tank!, and I was on 26 miles to go about 20 miles before the Somerset plaza and doing okay ... and then the traffic completely stopped, and instead of sixth gear I was in second, and I went from 26 to 18 to 12 to 8 to 3 miles remaining in the space of about ten miles, and then I was down to 2, 1, 0, and ---. And panicking, as you may well imagine. There weren't any exits, either, so it wasn't like I was holding out for the service plaza where I could fill up without leaving the turnpike. And yet the car kept running. And kept running. I was thinking okay, she's running on fumes, but it was ten more miles to the place and she got me all the way there, so that'd be the secret extra reserve even the car doesn't tell you about. I mean to say, I thought that was what the last couple of red dots on the gas gauge were, but there's more reserve after that. I put in 14.1 gallons when I got there, and if there were such a thing as car treats, Gizmo would have got a whole handful of them. That's my good girl.

Then the rest of PA continued to suck, and Maryland was no prize either. But now I'm home (arr. 8:30, the second-crummiest that trip has ever been) and have put some stuff away and will shortly go to bed and not have weird dreams which I then wake up from thinking I feel a breeze on my face and turning out to be right because the window two feet from my bed has fallen open in the night. I'm just saying.
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Left my parents' 11:30a. Am only just now in Breezewood. Fucking fog.
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Three-mile backup at the tollbooths to get out of Ohio. Tell me again why OH won't go on EZPass? GrrL

home again

Nov. 30th, 2008 10:41 am
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(not yet.)

Packing stuff and then packing the car. And then coffee and lots and lots of driving. Whee!

saturday

Nov. 29th, 2008 03:09 pm
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Slow morning. I have work I brought home (not a lot, but it needs doing), and there are now three (count 'em!) knitting projects I could (in one case, should) be working on, but instead we played some bridge before my brother headed over to spend the afternoon at his mother-in-law's, and I made a small slam in no-trumps. Yay! (I am the weakest bridge player in our family, so the fact that I only bid one hand really wrong today -- I missed a short club and bid as though we were bidding in clubs, because hi, I had seven points and at least five clubs to the jack, what was I supposed to bid? [answer: hearts, because I had four to the ace, but seriously, I thought the club bid was sincere] -- and played almost every hand right is more exciting than it would be if I were, you know, good at this game.)

Will shortly go for a wee walk into town with my mother in order to get copies made of a couple of old family pictures that I don't have. My father's parents' wedding picture, for one, and a photo of my grandmother's family ca. 1935, my great-grandmother and all five kids, probably one of the last such pictures, because the eldest daughter died from leukemia not too long after (if I'm doing the math right; my grandmother was born in 1923, so she was 12ish when the picture was taken, and I think she was the second of five children -- that is, I think the brother over on the other side was younger than she was, but I could be wrong. He was the best man at her wedding, and died when he was only 20 or 21, but she was married at 19, so they could go in either order, I don't know. In any case, though, the elder sister was not younger than 14 in 1935, and died at about 16, so there it is.) [eta: Having consulted Various Documents, we learn that the eldest sister was born in 1922 (and died in 1938); my grandmother was born in 1924; the eldest brother was born in 1925; the youngest sister was born in 1928; and the youngest brother was born in 1933. Because that youngest brother is standing upright and looks like a child rather than a baby or even a toddler in the picture, the older girls look like teenagers, the elder brother looks 12ish and the youngest girl about nine or ten, we conclude the picture was taken in 1937 or 1938, and not 1935 as previously suggested -- in my grandmother's own handwriting!, but she was wrong at other times in her life too.]

We don't seem to have any pictures of my father and his brother and sister all together. Or if we do, they're from like 1983. This makes me a little sad, because we're overrun with pictures of my mother and her brother and sisters all together, and I wish I had at least one such picture from the other side. My mother thinks we should photoshop my (late) aunt into a picture of my father and my uncle. I'm not opposed to this conceptually, but I think for creep-me-out reasons I'd rather photoshop my dad or my uncle into a picture my aunt was actually in, so we'll know for sure she was alive when it was taken.

I shall have to spend a little time sorting Stuff, in my ongoing quest to get as much of my crap as possible out of my parents' house. This time it may be (dozens of) printed t-shirts and a few pairs of shoes from other people's weddings. (I've got the dresses in the guest-room closet at my place, so the shoes should probably be with me as well.)
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This is Xjournal for Mac OS X, and I might like it better than Semagic, even. Yay!
fox: technical difficulties: please stand by. (technical difficulties)
So I know Semagic doesn't work on the Mac. But I see how I'm supposed to be able to run it under WINE. Sadly my skills are insufficient to work out how to operate WINE. Anyone? Or, is there another LJ client I can use? I don't think I care to depend on the web interface, after depending on the client for so long.
fox: snoopy is jubilant! (snoopy dance (by rahalia))
I return triumphant from various retail establishments, including the Apple Store, with a shiny! new! MacBook!, named -- almost inevitably, I feel -- Mr. Smith.

Everybody say hi.
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Turkey etc. consumed.  Nap taken.  Mom taught to knit.  (Casting on and knit stitch.  She has so far done six rows, of which only one was completed without acquiring another stitch somewhere.  It's so cute.)  Appointment made at Mac store for tomorrow, because computer freakouts coming across the plate pretty quickly now -- if I turn off the wireless device, no worries, but when I turn it on, which I need to do here, it periodically (sometimes with periods as short as 45 seconds) gives me BSOD and says "IRQL_NOT_LESS_OR_EQUAL", the only remedy for which I have ever discovered has been ... to turn off the wireless device.  I'm not fussed.  It's getting on for five years old, and I'd been thinking of replacing it anyway, so I may do so as soon as tomorrow lunchtime.  Mac owners may commence preparation for killing the fatted calf.

Posting quickly before I get booted.  Hope everyone's Thanksgiving/Thursday/Friday (if you're in Australia) was happy.  Shopping and movies tomorrow, probably.  Whee!

Also, I put gas in the car yesterday at Frederick, and then drove the rest of the way here -- a little over 300 miles -- on less than half a tank.  The second half will go quicker than the first, so I won't get 600 miles on this tank, but still, DUDES.  How awesome is that?  My cruise control loves me, this I know, because the half-dozen other drivers getting pulled over by the PA and OH state troopers tell me so.
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Got home 11ish.  Hung out with fam for a bit.  Back in childhood room, where dresser promptly tried to collapse on me when one caster fell out of front leg (of dresser) and couldn't be re-placed.  Propped up with ream of printer paper.  Learned that foaming face cloths labeled "deep moisture" really do leave your skin feeling less tight and dry than other types, even when water is -- at is is here -- hard as nails.

Apparently segments of Who fandom are being particularly jackassy.  Not that any of them are likely to be reading this, but if they are:  knock it off, y'all.  You're spoiling all kinds of things for the rest of us.

Sleeep.
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No excuse for traffic to still be this bad this far out. Was making decent progress, and am now stuck in fucking Hagerstown.
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I have just been informed that the Boss says it would be good for morale for everyone to work from home for the rest of the day, which, translated, means Get out of here. So off I go to do my couple of errands and then head to my parents' house.

My package-tracking efforts have failed, because I didn't read Lands End's fine print and UPS are a bunch of meanies (did you know that "arrival scan" does not necessarily mean that anything was scanned on arrival anywhere? this is what they call a "logical scan" rather than a "physical scan". the fact that this name is completely illogical did not register with them when i pointed it out). Ah, well.

Happy Thanksgiving. I'm off to Cleveland. Drive safe, everyone.

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