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sometimes easier to be a brain in a jar

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So I've been sick with one goddamn head cold after another since the middle of January, right?

Yeah. Went to the doctor this morning for a throat culture, and she listened to my symptoms and ordered some blood work and doesn't it turn out I'm toting MONO over here. Marvelous. Couldn't be happier. I shall now stay at home until the next team meeting, Friday at 11, and consume fluids in massive quantities.

Grar.

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Okay, that is seriously not fair!

-J

Yeah. I mean, on a scale of 1 to earthquake + tsunami + nuclear meltdown, it's obviously not really much. But having perspective doesn't mean I'm not still allowed to feel sorry for myself. Wah.

Oh, honey, what a drag! At least now you have a diagnosis -- maybe that's ever so slightly helpful?

*hug*

It's totally helpful, actually - I didn't realize, until she came back and said Yeah, your mono's positive and I felt this overwhelming sense of relief, that I've apparently been in my head all this time about how hard this winter has been kicking my ass. The confirmation that there really is something going on over here is very reassuring.

Except right after that sense of relief I had a nearly overwhelming sense of despair, since there's nothing I can do proactively to make this thing go away. I went in for a throat culture! I wanted medicine! BOO.

Whee.

When I had mono a few years ago, I turned out to be one of the lucky minority who gets yes, the exhaustion, but also a motherfucker of a case of insomnia, so I would fall asleep of total OH GOD NEED SLEEP and wake up like 12 minutes later and be unable to go back to sleep. Leading to--I shit you not--falling asleep standing up on the way to the bathroom (falling asleep standing up means waking up leaning against the wall. I did not know humans even could do this.)

I anti-wish that shit on you, and hope you can just, you know, sleep for four days, eat a million helpings of applesauce and soup and tea, and feel better.

Oh my goodness, I'm so sorry you went through that, and I do not want it. When I was in college I had a CMV, which is basically a lot like mono but from a different virus; I would sleep for fifteen hours, wake up, take a shower, and be so exhausted from showering that I had to lie down for a while before I could muster the energy to get dressed. (My lymph nodes were so swollen they stood out from my neck. It was grotesque. I wore a scarf for weeks.) I'm not that exhausted now - just, you know, able to get through the day, only worn down - but I know myself well enough to know if I were that tired and unable to sleep I would just lie there and cry.