ask me again:

besides being stubborn, which i freely acknowledge as one of my faults, i tend to procrastinate. i know this is hardly unique -- but it's not so much distasteful tasks that i put off, as ones i'm not really sure how to tackle. a good friend and i had a long talk about this last fall, when i was struggling with that paper that turned out not to suck: we're both the sort of perfectionist that doesn't want to have done something wrong, so if we're not sure we can do it right, we just ... don't do it yet. (my mother is the opposite. if she's not sure she can do it right the first time, she does it as soon as possible, to get the doing-it-wrong out of the way. her way is much more productive.)

currently i have this application for a full-year FLAS that's just waiting for my statement of purpose. it's freakishly late that i'm submitting the application, but the guy said sure, go ahead, and they'll just have to consider the timely ones first -- and it isn't my procrastinating that's made it so late, incidentally; i didn't know the thing was available until the deadline had passed. i've got the rec letters. i've filled out the forms. but the SoP? it's my worst thing. rationally, i know it's not going to make or break the application -- frankly, i'm either going to get this thing or i'm not -- but i can't seem to sit down and write the damn thing. augh. help!