election judging, or not

I was going to be a Chief Election Judge next Tuesday; and logistically speaking, I'm not presently tied up with an ongoing family emergency, so I thought okay, I can still do it. But this afternoon I was feeling worse and worse, and realized I was stressing about the probability that I wouldn't do it well (my brother suggests that I might be likely to hold myself to a different standard than they do, which may be true but is neither here nor there) and also the necessity of deliberately adding to my sleep deprivation in order to do it at all - and I sent a message to my recruiter to say look, this is what has happened, I hope I can be replaced without too much difficulty. And immediately I felt a wash of relief such that I knew it had been the right decision. (She called back later in the afternoon to say they can indeed find someone to do it instead of me and to offer her condolences.) And I hope I can be of some use to the County Board of Elections at some future date when I'm not coming right off a family disaster.