Oct. 2nd, 2005

[whimper]

Oct. 2nd, 2005 12:45 am
fox: arctic fox:  time to hibernate (hibernate)
pressure in my right ear.  hurts a lot.  also my teeth ache on that side.

but mostly the ear thing.  waaah.
fox: remus lupin knows from chronic pain (love - brain (by Sam))
as i was saying to a friend last night, it's not that this is the worst i've ever felt -- i know for a fact i've felt worse than this at various times in the past.  it's just that i have no sense memory of how bad i felt at those times, whereas i am immediately and painfully aware of how bad i feel right now.  this is the kind of discomfort where you forget what it feels like to feel well.

last night i got in bed and closed my eyes at something like 1:45.  the next time i was aware of what time it was, i think it was about 3:30.  and then 5am.  i definitely heard the clock strike six.  i couldn't stay asleep.  every time i turned my head, i had to blow my nose.  i kept having snatches of dreams about senior members of somerville college asking me for keys.  at about 6am (i think) i stacked up my pillows to lean against -- i'm happier lying down, except that sitting up i can breathe a little easier.  it didn't work and i still had to breathe through my mouth.  i had a few isolated bars of chess stuck in my head for like an hour and a half, the same few bars from two or three different numbers, and i couldn't get them out.  the only up side was, my throat doesn't hurt quite as much.

utter.  misery.

i finally got up and got dressed around 3pm.  have tried to eat some things, and i had some tea and spoke to my parents and my brother and sister-in-law.  there's a dinner thing with the new students tonight, and i had to beg off -- i don't see myself paying £10 for a meal i'll barely taste while risking everyone else's health in the process.  not to mention that the first few minutes i leave the building, i feel a little better -- fresh air, yay -- but after those few minutes, i feel worse and worse.

i went to the store and bought tissues, and pot noodles, and juice.  and now i want to take a nap, but see above re: lying down.  my ears are stuffed up.  the tissues have lotion in them, and my nose is still raw.  i know this will pass within another couple of days, but for now i just want to curl up and die.

[whine]

Oct. 2nd, 2005 07:59 pm
fox: arctic fox:  time to hibernate (hibernate)
and on top of everything else, my damn fingernails are too long.

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