two kinds of perspective.
Mar. 29th, 2011 10:53 pm- So what's been good about this mono thing - and this is a genuine positive, not just me trying desperately to find a bright side - is that I'm learning an important thing about myself: viz, that I have previously had, in most areas of my life, two speeds, those being zero and full. I'm not claiming I'm the one who always plays through injuries and so on - I'm the first to admit I can get knocked down to zero by injuries or illnesses that others might not even notice. But that's another symptom of my previous binary thing, see? I'd rest when I wasn't well and then resume when I felt enough better to do so, and it turns out that living like that is a fine way to never recover sufficiently and eventually you get mono and then don't you feel silly.
So I'm feeling a whole lot better now, but I'm learning about this middle way, right? I'm working at home this week and next, and I've backed out of the next chorus concert but not the one after, in the interest of allowing the gradual recovery I'm in the midst of to progress. I feel better but it's not time to go back to work full time yet, because normal would be overdoing it. Moderation. It's a nutty thing, man.
And I was having exactly this conversation with one of the ladies at the curling club, and I said "So, you know, I'm thirty-three. Good time for this kind of life lesson." - And she said, "Yes. Learn it while you're young."