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For the first time ever, I think the second sock is going/has gone faster than the first. Once I got around the heel on this thing (and corrected an issue where the stitches I'd picked up for one side of the gusset didn't twist - nothing actually wrong with them, but then the second sock wouldn't have matched the first) I've just been flying. All that's left is six pattern repeats (=24 rows) and the toe. Couple hours of work, at the very most. \o/ (But not tonight.)

drugs

So when I try to sleep, I can feel my body shutting down for the purpose. I can feel my arms and legs get heavy, and I can even feel my fingers get cold - but my mind keeps thundering along, not switching off. I've had the experience before many times of my mind waking up first and not being able to move my body, but I've never been aware of having a kind of sleep paralysis where my mind stays awake longer than my body. Eventually I do fall asleep, of course, but I think this means the vivid dreams I'm having are all the sleep I'm getting. (Normally I sleep very soundly, with the occasional vivid dream just around the edges.)

Which is why the doctor is calling me in a prescription for an anti-anxiety medication, instead of for a sleep aid. I don't know what to expect from that but I'm hopeful that she's right it will quiet things down so my brain can go to sleep at the same time the rest of me does.

lorazepam

WOW.

That's all - I have thoughts about socks and the Magnificat and probably some other things but they'll have to wait until the morning when I will be able to string them together coherently. (I will be able to string thoughts together coherently in the morning, won't I? Because I took this thing an hour ago and now my eyes are crossing. I'm sure my head will fall asleep faster than my feet tonight, and I won't notice the moment where my chest goes fthump - just once each night!, and it's been hard to tell if it's catching my breath or my heart skipping a beat or what, but tonight I expect it won't bother me.

Oh wait I had a parenthesis open. ) There.

NIGHT EVERYBODY


wait you know I can't use my icon that says "Dear Body, you're the worst roommate ever and I hate you, love, the Brain", because it's the brain that's misbehaving just now. i need one that says "Dear Brain, we've got a lot of socks you can put in it, love, the Body", or something.